Being Single at Christmas SUCKS

By Devilish Girl | December 15, 2008

It’s the one time of the year that I cannot fully embrace the freedom that is me being single.  It’s so damn lonely.  I dread the whole fucking month of December.  I fill it with visits to family. I pick an angel and go all out for the child. I do whatever I can to distract myself.  And this year having Aus in my life doesn’t make the month any easier.  Yeah, go ahead scratch your heads, I haven’t talked about Aus much on here.  One day I will wax poetic about him but right now I don’t need the recriminations from anyone.  Here’s a song that fits how I feel perfectly at this very moment in time.  Merry Fucking Christmas.

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
When you’re Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There’s gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there.

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So Much to Be Thankful For

By Devilish Girl | November 27, 2008

The last year or so has been a difficult time for me.  I have contemplated erasing this blog as well as others that I have.  Writing had become a chore instead of fun, time was at a premium and I was busy making lots of changes in my life.  I have decided I want to continue with the things that gave me joy and this blog is one of them.

This Thanksgiving I am so grateful to have my family and friends around me — both in my “real” life and my virtual lives.  The holidays are here and I want to enjoy them with the people I care about.

I have come to the conclusion that you CAN help having most of the “bad” stuff in your life.  You just have to take control of your own happiness.  Sweep out the bad and usher in the good.  Have a “friend” who is your personal psychic vampire?  Or a family member that creates financial instability in your life?  Sometimes you have to do the hard thing and cut them out.  You have to start taking care of yourself before you can take care of anyone else.  And that’s what I am doing — ushering in the good.

So have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

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